Limbo

“As much as I’ve always been driven creatively to move forward toward something bigger, brighter, and unknown, I’m also a deeply-rooted nostalgic. I adore photos, mementos, all bits of ephemera that represent each and every time and space I traverse. I’m a hoarder when it comes to these things…
A flood of memories wash over me when I find these treasures, all of them new again, focused by the perspective I’ve gained in the years since. It’s a beautiful kind of limbo, seeing yourself, your past alongside your present…”
-Mick Fleetwood from Play On…Now, Then, And Fleetwood Mac The Autobiography-

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Limbo
There I am, sitting on the couch

Looking as content as I can be
But what makes me smile now
Are the faces of the other three
Friendships, made in a flash
Cultivated with laughter, and cold beers
The time of my life, so many times
Great nights, that turned into years

Sometimes I sit with a lost friend
If only for a brief while
I gaze into her playful green eyes
I remember his reluctant smile
Realize just how alive they really were
And how precious that our time is
That contagious spirit, so uniquely hers
The distinctive laugh, that could only be his

A note, a post card, a poem

Feelings that are, and/or used to be
A letter filled with distant love
Words, meant only for me
Wee hour messages that I have written
Hastefully penned, but never sent
A shoebox, filled with emotions
Papers lined with what we meant

Flipping through the pages and photos
Snapshots of my life until now
People and places, that shaped who I am
Images of who, of where, when and how
Framed pictures of significant moments
Rectangular reminders of family and friends
Travels together on this wondrous journey
An evolving road, that curves and bends

It’s a beautiful kind of limbo
Spent with people that I know
A transcendent state of mind
And I can choose where to go
The full gambit of my experiences
The love, the pain, the pleasure
Memories, that take me away and back

Moments, I will always treasure

Camping, Christmas, the dinner table
My whole family, together in one place
The truest essence of who I am today
So much influence, etched in each face
My Mom, my Dad, right there for me
Whenever when my heart yearns 

I am able to go home, again and again
With happy, and melancholy returns

Time-lapse capsules of my two daughters
Wide-eyed infants, in the back seat of the car
From half-day kindergarten to incredible teens
Ever-emerging lives, chronicled so far
First steps, dance recitals, and graduation
Lovingly preserved, in albums or on DVD
Even when they seem too far to reach
I can find them here, in front of me

Awards, team photos, newspaper clippings
Memories of play that are always fond
Reminders of an enduring love of sports
Teammates, championships, a life-long bond
Wondering what became of those I coached
Peewee signatures on a thank-you card
Events and people that helped me to grow
Character built, through practicing hard

These boxes that I’ve moved many times
To different homes, to cities and towns
Different cabinets containing my life
All of us sharing the ups and downs
I can open up whenever I want to
These memories, of importance to me
Their significance, personally priceless
Sentimental value, I can always see

It’s a beautiful kind of limbo
Sitting there, beside myself
A transcendent state of mind
Brought down from a shelf
My life, captured in moments
The past, seen through today’s eyes 
Images, taking me away and back
Suspended, for now, while time flies

 

Pages

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Pages
Plenty of reflections
Plenty of idiosyncrasies
come naturally with age.

The
inclination to hesitate
 The instinct to look back…
before I turn a page.

Birthdays and anniversaries

Dates of significance
Names and news and faces.
They pull be back in time
To a life full of friends
To many happy places.

I find myself occupied

For more than a moment
When I stop to reminisce.
So deeply entrenched
As I get lost in a past
That I invariably miss.

I have done my due time

Been an adult for a while
Am a proud father of two.
Have settled into middle age
Set aside my daydreams
For the responsible view.

Far too many pages

Far too many friendships
That I’ve let slide by.

As my mortality jolts me

As I read into it further…
I have to ask why?

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Social media postcards

Everyone is travelling
Going there and there.
With unlimited budgets
Twelve weeks of vacation
Gone without a care.

Everyone else seems to get it

That time is of the essence
As the years tread by.
Different walks of life
With uncommon passages
But similar reasons why.

Emphatic experiences

To exciting locations
At the drop of a hat.
Unbelievably available
Unrealistic, of course
But I want some of that.

So many more pages

So many more memories
for me to still get.

With age comes wisdom

With wisdom comes perspective…
but not just yet.

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Chance encounter reminders

Of emotions long forgotten
Of passages in my book.
Resolute feelings of once was
The remnants of my passion
And the chances that I took.

“You look great for fifty”

That is kind of you to say
But it’s clearly not the same.
Just takes me back to twenty
With the world at my feet
At the top of my game.

I have no urge to act my age

I crave the reckless abandon
That I felt back then.
I need more of that feeling
More of that self-assurance
Inside of me again.

Plenty of next pages

Plenty of new stories
before this chapter ends.

Much is still in place

Much of what motivates me…
and most of those friends.

 

BOUND

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Photo courtesy of Lana Nolan

BOUND

Unbreakable love…
An emotional commitment
that knows no bounds
Far more than just the words
An unbreakable love
f
eels even better than it sounds

Photo courtesy of Lana Nolan

Photo courtesy of Lana Nolan

 

This love…
Brings impressions to the surface
Puts perspective in its place
An exchange of due respect
 It’s a level of understanding
 That works best face to face

This love…
Embraces all that is right
Can endure what may go wrong
Joined as one in our resolve
We are bonded by integrity
And together we are strong

Unbreakable love…
An emotional commitment
that knows no bounds
Unbreakable love
It feels even better

than it sounds

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Photo courtesy of Lana Nolan

This love…
Needs to be nourished
Requires both give and take
Fueled by new beginnings
By the hopes that we have
With the memories that we make

This love…
Leads us on our journey
Adds excitement to every day
To the realities of here and now
The possibilities of tomorrow
And to our hopes along the way


This love that we share…

Is reinforced by our children
Strengthened by family and friends
It enhances our life experience
  It is the heart of who we are
And is the means to our ends

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Photo courtesy of Lana Nolan

An unbreakable love…
An emotional commitment
that knows no bounds
More than just the words
Our unbreakable love
i
s even better than it sounds

Foundation

                      Foundation

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it will feel like home…

Where our paths inevitably intersect
at the heart of the lives we share
at the crux of our common ease
where vulnerability and support meet

Where we are always welcomed inside
with the embrace of certainty
with the warmth that is family
where we are able relax and revitalize

Where communication is encouraged
while we challenge day to day
while we experience life as one
where positivity and hopes reside

Where we can always find a friend
everyone is someone who understands
all hallways lead to a conversation
where we never have to feel alone

…The foundation for a remarkable life.

Wherever we can grow ever closer
that will be our home…

Where the morning awakens the senseswpid-img_20140510_115512.jpg
whiffs fill your nose as you lift your eyes
the sounds of doors opening one by one
where each day begins with each other

Where every room is the place to be
and family gatherings are any number
and a kitchen party precedes every meal
where memories are only a moment away

Where tangible inspirations reside
images that are etched in your mind’s eye
like the peaceful scatter of falling snow
where life is framed through a picture window

Where the doors always swing open
to a world of boundless adventure
to limitless unknown beyond fences
where anything can seem like a possibility

Where we can build more memories
ones that will be uniquely ours
ones that chronicle lives well spent
where the walls will tell our story

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When life leads us on many journeys
love will bring us home.

Living

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LIVING


Life is about experiencing love

         and everything it brings.
Love is about appreciating life
       and the little things.

Life is about trusting your instincts
         and taking chances.
Love is about recognizing why
         and knowing glances.

Life is about accepting realities
         and right and wrong.
Love is about understanding
         and staying strong.

Life is about treating with respect
          and believing in good.
Love is about making a commitment
  and realizing you should.

Life is about discovering more
         and wanting to thrive.
Love is about taking a hold 
         and feeling alive.

Life is about embracing change
 and before and after.
Love is about sharing circumstance
and pain and laughter.

Life is about appreciating memories
         and learning from the past.
Love is about creating tomorrows
         and making them last.

Life is about living with love
         and me…and you.
Love is about loving life
                and knowing that you knew.

Unsaid

 
Those you love deserve to know
and holding back can only hurt.
Why would we want to live that way?
Trapped in a shallow pit of emotion
Choosing to keep all of it inside
Until one day you find that it is too late
And the life you missed has passed you by.
 
 
So much to enjoy in this world
and holding back can only hurt.
Why would we want to miss any of it?
The people and places and the faces
Opportunity to experience this adventure
Solitary choices with a multitude of results
And the chance to grab onto this life.
 
 
Life is lined with feelings and emotions
and holding back can only hurt.
Why would we want to keep them hidden?
The true senses of love and of hope and pain
Your immediate gut responses to life’s beauty
Honest expressions of what’s inside
And the innate reactions we should share.
 
 
 There is so much to be thankful for   
and holding back can only hurt.
Why would we leave anything unsaid?
Whenever a trickle of truth brings it out
The smallest of things or moments of knowing
Hold their attention and let them hear it
And the strength of your words will resonate.
 
 
 
 
 
 

Vanquish

Cerebral images pervade your night
Eye locked visions in mind’s eye sight
Blank pages with much to write
A tapestry of perception in black and white.

Wish it all away…
No candle or magic star.
Just you, and yourself
And experiences of so far.

Wish it all away…
Wipe the slate clean.
Put hope into words
And say what you mean.

Task at hand                   Sample portions               Fifteen minutes
Everyday life                  Food for thought              National stage
Real emotions                What to consume             Bad timing
Sharp as a knife              And what to not               Turn the page

Harsh words                  She the suitor                   Student athlete
Six year grudge             He the sought                   Next step school
Lost time friend             Too blind to see                Many distractions
Be the judge                   Lost a lot                           Played the fool

Jaded gentleman                          Convenient comfort
Could not care                               Tried to feel
Put up walls                                   Broke her heart
Stayed right there                          It was not real

Wish it all away…
Give wings to all is well.
Lift up with mighty means
And fly out of your shell.

Wish it all away…
Let dreams take flight.
Grasp for what you want
And hold on with all your might.

In this moment                Reach for more              Share the wealth
Years remain                    Easier it seems               Enrich together
Cherish the now               Realistic goals                Find the sun
Vanquish the vain            In lofty dreams              In every weather

Healthy core                     Beautiful girls                    Places to see
Keep it fit                           Reflective light                  Worlds to share
Staying young                   Keep you strong                Minds like clay
Grind and grit                   Reasons to fight                Shape them there

Hidden love                    Rhythmic existence             Final scene
Ready to find                  Music of the heart               One act play
Seek and enjoy               Drum pound beat                Be the hero
Body and mind               The guitar part                    Save the day

Project an image                         Open to anything
Set the stage                                Brand new lease
Build a legacy                             Broken no more
Enliven the page                         Found my peace

Cerebral images shine some light
Life time lessons in mind’s eye sight
Blank pages with much more to write
A tapestry of perception in black and white.

Wish it all away…
My place is right here.
Stay true to myself
And be crystal clear.

Wish it all away…
The past is in the past.
The future really is now
And we are here at last.

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