Lu

Lu
I have tried to put myself where you are
To imagine how all of this must make you feel.
To imagine all you must be thinking
as you sit down, with us, to share in a meal.
When something as vital as all of this,
questions you’ve carried and could no longer conceal,
becomes something now that actually is.
Something uncertain, that is suddenly real.
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Unanswered questions, so near to your life
The persistent glimmer, as you have grown
Many thought-filled nights, lying in bed,
with a glimpse of the truth, beside an unknown
All of the trappings of everyday normalcy,
family and friends and the seeds you have sewn
Childhood innocence, and then adolescence
An adult, then a mom, with a family of your own

Ongoing years, learning a little at a time
Altered details of who you had hoped to meet
Your husband’s hand, and love and support,
and a wondering heart’s determined beat
Through family trees, into family histories
From informative emails to a signature on a sheet
Back and forth, and around and around,
until your elusive circle is near to complete

In the comfort of somewhere that feels familiar
Together, at long last, on the Huron shore
On a Wednesday in May, at a Goderich gathering,
of open minds, through an open door
With all of your rights, and your revelations,
and all the years that were too much to ignore
After all of the clues, and then the confirmation,
you finally catch up to all that came before

Along with all of the realities of a good life to here,
there is the calm in knowing you have even more.

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We sincerely hope this all feels completely real.
And that we have helped to make it easier for you.
We also look forward to our next time together,
whenever that may be, whatever we may do.
And I think that I can speak for all of us,
for your extra, additional family…and for our mother too,
when I say that whatever your life’s wishes are,
we hope that at least one of them has now come true.

Grounded

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Grounded
A weekend of filled time
that was good for my soul
Improving my outlook
being the main goal
Replenishing the bare spots
and filling each hole
I had everything that I needed
and I was ready to roll

One hundred wheel barrows.
A shovel. And a rake.
Knowing what I hoped to get done.
And what it might take.
Putting my pride and persistence
behind the improvements I make.
I feel exhilarated and alive,
despite all of this ache.

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I was looking for level ground

after some rough terrain
Putting down more roots of my own
and hoping they will sustain
Confident that all my hard work
will be well worth the pain
I expect to see some sunshine 
after a few days of rain

 Three yards of soil.
And two of stone.
I have done the groundwork.
And I will make this my own.
I feel an intense satisfaction
from just the effort alone.
These seeds may be newly planted, 
but I have already grown.

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