Invariably

                     Invariably

“You need to pave your own path,”
she would always say.
“Do not let fear, or doubt,
ever stand in your way”.you are enough text
“Just take the bull by the horns.”
“Jump right into the fray.”

“Carpe diem, Gary James.
Seize every day.”…

I would see the familiar postmark,
and I would always smile
A thoughtful note, a card, a poem,
certainty, every once in a while
That perfect hand writing
Her unique, unmistakeable style
My consistent, truest inspiration
Spanning many a mile

“Carpe diem, Gary James
Seize every day.”

Invariably, my phone would ring
after a few sunken days in a row
When I needed her buoyant words,
she would lift me from my low
Her soothing and assuring voice
A motivational “get up and go”
Not sure just how she knew
She just always seemed to know

“Carpe diem, Gary James
Seize every day.”

Even as the cruelty of life
slowly seized the best of her20180803_204117.jpg
Even as her struggling breaths
slowly faded away…

Even in the face of the inevitable,
in the last squeeze of her hand,
her message seeped into my heart
And it’s forever here to stay…

“Carpe diem, son.
I am with you always.
Now go and seize the day.”

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Struggling

 

Struggling

I see you struggling to open your eyes.

Despite your efforts, you cannot see
Despite knowing just where I’ll be
Here beside you, until pain-free.

Only then can we drift apart
Only then can my sorrow start.
Behind every breath is your fading heart.


I see you struggling for peaceful sleep.

Despite your illness it is hard to rest
Despite the medicine to calm your chest
I will comfort you through this final test.

Only then can we drift apart
Only then can my sorrow start.
Behind every breath is your fading heart.


I see you struggling for every breath.

Despite your will, there is no way
Despite the fact you can hear me say
I will be with you until your final day.

Only then will we drift apart
Only then will my sorrow start.
Beside every breath is my fading heart.

 

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