Myself
I was indifferent, wandering,
when we first met
Raw, lost, and purposely alone
Barely wanting, knowing,
if I even cared to look
Wondering, daily,
if I even wanted to try.
It seems so long ago,
so far from where I find myself
Where I found my self
To the here, to the now
To where I am vital, content
Certain, today,
that you’re the reasons why.
I find myself, reflective, here.
Found my self, reflected, there.
I followed our love to get to today
On a path, lined,
with many fresh new memories
To this hopeful here,
and to our happy now
Eventual time, guided,
by the bluest of shared skies.
Projecting only forward,
to tonights, and to tomorrows
To the vast unknown,
secure, in what is known,
In what is shown
At peace, in this life, with this love,
as our time slowly flies.
I have opened up, again,
by looking in the right place
Seeing, and noticing
Discovering and rediscovering
Spending time, there,
A focused man, here
Feeling healthy, and happy, and wise.
Found my self, reflected, there.
I find myself, reflective, here.
A special night, now,
is any night,
and most every night
As I get to spend them
in my favourite place
And where I get lost, now,
is where I was found.
It is here, with you
and your lovely face
In the perfect place
There, inside your eyes
Secure, within this love
I am safe, and I am sound
There and here... on solid ground.
I am myself. Here.
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Posted by ggreentree on October 13, 2023
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2023/10/13/here-2/
Together
Together
Another great night
Together
Love and understanding
Two hearts meeting
Our familiar refrain
Together
Love and understanding
Well worth repeating
I arrive at your house
A few petty annoyances
weighing on my mind
You are there for me
with a smile and a kiss
The door closes behind
I feel immediately better
The cold left outside
The tension gone
The night ahead of us
With you in my arms
With the music on
Forgotten, in an instant
Moving all that’s good
ahead of the bad
Love and understanding
Takes me far away
from the day that I had
Your numerous worries
Drastic life changes
swirling all around
I am right here
with a shoulder and an ear
Until answers are found
Talk and common sense
The simple solution
Splitting perspective in half
The right words to say
Our candid exchange
Making each other laugh
Forgotten, for tonight
A switch of topic
A shift of gear
Love and understanding
Remembering the reason
that we are both here
This quality time
Together
Great conversation
Music and laughter
Love and understanding
Together
We are the difference
between before and after
Posted by ggreentree on February 1, 2019
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2019/02/01/together/
Triathlon
Triathlon
I am not completely sure
if I am entitled to be,
or, really, if I’m even allowed
But, I am thoroughly impressed by you
And, dare I say,
I am extremely proud…
I watched you, in your controlled haste,
steadying, readying, and taking your place at the start
And then I noticed the cool and calm ease
with which you settled into the race
Then, somehow, you found the presence of mind
to look up, to find me, and even to wave
Before swimming, strong and steadily away,
from the huge smile you left on my face
It seems that I’d completely underestimated
the strength and power of your stroke
as I arrived, too late to support you,
through your swim to bike transition
My own personal pride thoroughly jolted
by the sick emptiness in my stomach
My eagerness to video, thwarted,
by your speed, and your top five position
Yet, my whole heart went out there with you
as you spun your way through the winding course
I went up the hills with you, and then down,
my mind, racing along, despite what I couldn’t see
It was impossible for me to relax, or even to sit,
with all of the unknown, and all the anticipation
So I paced, anxiously, awaiting your arrival
as you pedaled your way back to me
A contented relief flushed over me
as you braked, and then you touched ground
As you pushed your bicycle to your chosen spot,
I felt as much like your fan, as I was your friend
Despite my pent up angst, and energetic love,
I knew I had a very small window to speak
Time enough to cheer you, and to reassure you,
and to tell you, that I’d find you near the end
As you switched your shoes, and turned to go
I noticed the game-face return to your glance
I’ve seen that will and determination before
It’s who you are, and in much that you do
As you ran out of sight, on your last leg,
I yelled more encouragement, in due haste
Wishing that my words could push you along
Hoping my spirit would run with you
As you emerged from the tunnel, weary legged,
nearing the last of your well of endurance,
your eyes seemed focused, intently on the task
Looking for anything that you had left inside
While you bravely ascended the final climb,
you amazingly found one final burst,
crossing the finish, alone with your fatigue
Soon to be joined by my burgeoning pride
I stayed back, for a minute or two, purposely,
to simply observe, and to give you some space
And as I watched you, catching up to your breath,
I saw right then, what separates you from the crowd
It’s your personal investment, in all that you attempt
In my eyes, you’re resplendent, with all that you are
And in that moment, as you looked especially beautiful,
I could not have been more impressed or proud
Posted by ggreentree on September 4, 2018
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2018/09/04/triathlon/
Mine
MINE
I was inching away from everything
that I had tried so hard to preserve
Taking the smallest of careful steps,
as I negotiated the next curve
Having spent far too much energy
accepting less than I deserve
Gradually reaching the realization
that I have more than enough nerve
So, I am making changes
For me
Found someone who sees the very best
in me
Nearer to the fun and confident essence
of who I used to be
Experiencing life, one day at a time
For me
I had the best of all of the intentions
but my will seldom found the way
I just needed some selfish motivation,
and to heed the words I would say
When it’s broken, you must fix it,
rather than put it off, for yet another day
And that meant doing it myself,
believing, this is the price I’ll pay
So, I am making changes
For me
Bought a nice new, reliable vehicle
just for me
I am getting ever closer
to the way things should be
Closer to the life that I choose
For me
The constant of the truly good people
who are always always there
Family, colleagues, closest friends,
listening, simply because they care
Honesty, in the face of my best interest,
with only good intentions to share
Helping to get me to a better place
and then joining me, no matter where
I am making these changes
For me
A newish job, and a great new house
For me
I am now looking only forward,
to the place I want to be
Where life and love and happiness meet
With me
Posted by ggreentree on June 4, 2018
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2018/06/04/mine/
Sensational
Sensational
There is no secret formula
to what works for me with you
We simply go wherever
the sensations take us to…
Every time we get together, it seems,
we add something new to the mix
It’s our possibilities addiction,
and we can’t wait for another fix
A constant stream of unique sensations
Spontaneous abandon, going with the flow
A near to the edge of anticipation
The craving for you just never know
It’s the understatement of the embrace
when one of us walks in the door
The understood, unspoken expectation
that we are in for so much more
The adrenalin of our any given moment
The rush of the next uncovered feeling
A song, a word, a look, a touch
Real sensations, that often leave us reeling
We found one another
when the time for us was right
A man and woman, with love,
and the sensations of each night…
Every time we are apart, it seems,
we look forward with an impatient haste
Driven by our insatiable appetites,
and the selfish need for another taste
More than just passion wets our appetite
We find satisfaction in our conversations
It’s the opportunity that fuels our desires
Time together, that feeds the sensations
We have been spoiled by availability,
but we share the same perspective
Better to indulge in creating memories
than to feel empty or sadly reflective
We can fill up on todays and tomorrows
On shared experiences, and the little things
Be stimulated by all that we have now
And by every sensation the future brings
It’s the end of another work day
and we have no idea what’s in store
We do know that it will be sensational
Who could ask for more.
Posted by ggreentree on April 27, 2018
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2018/04/27/sensational/
Nexus
Nexus
Midnight says good bye
to 2017
Celebrating with friends
while you are away
This new year brings me
to a new day
I have found you
and I couldn’t be happier
At the end of the year
that brought you my way
Alone at 3:00 AM
but far from lonely
Accompanied by fresh memories
that fill my head
Wishing you were here
as I go to bed
I have you on my mind
and in my heart
At the nexus to the year
that lies ahead
A year removed
from my misery
Twelve months further
from all I could take
So much to look forward to
when I awake
I have you in my life
and I can’t get enough
What a difference
a new year can make
Posted by ggreentree on January 1, 2018
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2018/01/01/nexus/
Silence
Silence
I hear the furnace kick in, on this cool morning.
An awakening nudge, from within the silence…
my creative silence.
It is then that I notice,
gradually notice more
The nuances of early morning
Just outside my door
The stillness of the lake
The shadows near the shore
A family of four ducks
And behind them two more
A peaceful place to begin my day
Alone, with some time to explore
A window to an opened mind.
A unique view, from within the silence…
my creative silence.
The façade of my introspection
Protective, but paper thin
Accessible, in the early morning
Without the voices or the din
An undisturbed opportunity
To summon, from within
The chance to visit places
Where I have seldom been
Insights, subtly perceptible
Like the drop of a pin
The sound of my ideas resonates,
clearly audible to me, from within the silence…
my creative silence.
Discernable refrains of thought
Echoing inside my peaceful shell
The intricacies of perception
From the depths of my well
The complexities of emotion
The conflicts that I must quell
Lost, and found, in the early morning
Immersed in what to tell
A place to elevate my opinions
Up from where they fell
I find my positive inspiration,
emerging, from within the silence…
my creative silence.
The early morning moves me
As the words start to flow
Drifting through the shadows
Like the ducks, in a row
Lines of innate substance
Gaining momentum as they go
Buoyant, lucid, more certain
Shedding inhibitions as they grow
Brought into the morning light
From this tranquil place I know
The quiet of the morning finds me here.
Where I can hear myself think…
within my creative silence.
Posted by ggreentree on May 19, 2016
https://ggreentree.wordpress.com/2016/05/19/silence/